Psychiatric Hospital Stay 2001 *Final*

Journal 12/23/2001

Just to go home and spend time with my pets will make a big difference in mood. I look forward to seeing Christmas Cards and learning how friends are doing. The stack of mail will cover the dining table. Plenty of new magazines to read going into new year. 

After ECT on Friday I’m determined to go home, he can’t intimidate me. This feels like jail at times but I’m free to walk when ready. I did say future ECT would be out-patient, that was a bold face lie. I’m never stepping foot in here again. 

This is the slowest week, counting the minutes to jail break. Only one book left to read, I’ll have to sleep half a day tomorrow. What is shipping from eBay? I went on big shopping spree before check in, it made me feel better. That’s not true, still trying to fill the big void. 

Time to set goals! Paint office, clean carpet, organize office closet, clean garage………..let’s see how long I stay on task. 

12/24/2001

I had ECT early in morning, slept till noon it’s now 2:00 and time to pack. Told front desk the doctor needed to know I’m leaving. Another two hours of BS but I’m home bound. It is not advisable to drive day of ECT treatment but that will not stop me today. I miss my bed and privacy. 

I’m unsure of the value in the post, do the journal entries help anyone? I waited until 2018 to write, it wasn’t a deep seeded trauma. I felt no pain writing this.

I pray people will research the reputation of hospital first. Can they provide the specific help you need? If you don’t know what to expect you may sell your recovery short.

M