Dementia and Suicide

Second Stage Dementia

 

As dementia progresses, the symptoms first experienced in the early stages of the dementia generally worsen. The rate of decline is different for each person. A person with moderate dementia scores between 6–17 on the MMSE. For example, people with Alzheimer’s dementia in the moderate stages lose almost all new information very quickly. People with dementia may be severely impaired in solving problems, and their social judgment is usually also impaired. They cannot usually function outside their own home, and generally should not be left alone. They may be able to do simple chores around the house but not much else, and begin to require assistance for personal care and hygiene other than simple reminders.[11]


I’m in Second Stage Dementia, a 17 on the MMSE and I’m going to kill myself. There’s no emotion in my voice, my husband knows, my Therapist and Psychiatrist know. I don’t want to die and that is why picking the right time is so important. I won’t lay wasting away not knowing anyone, not able to speak or eat. Someone has to bathe you, change your bed several times a day, its gut wrenching to watch someone you love die this way.  

I cared for my Granny, the second stroke is where she started losing touch. She would say “why did Gramps leave me at this house.” I took photos off the wall to assure her he went to get groceries, she was lost in a terrible reality. She would bang her head against the wall and scream she wanted to die. My Granny got so violent I had to medicate her and that was the last time my Gramps could to leave the house until her death. 

My Dementia was caused from Lyme Diseases, the spirochetes were in my brain. I’m in the second stage and it’s difficult already. It’s not just the words forgotten, it’s the time’s per day forgotten. I talked with my husband last night but have no idea what we talked about. Many times the words don’t come or I make them up. I’m sure you’ve seen if you’ve read my blog. I try tell myself it’s freeing to not worry about the date or day of week, it’s sad cover.

The two links were written about caring for my Granny. 

https://lookingforthelightblog.wordpress.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=5104&action=edit

https://lookingforthelightblog.wordpress.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=5105&action=edit

 

5 Comments »

  1. I can only imagine how difficult this awfully cruel disease is. I think you’ve done so well to write about it and about caring for your granny. Just a heads up – the links don’t work (they go to the edit page, rather than the blog post page itself).
    Caz xx

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    • Thanks for the heads up, they worked on me. Not telling. It feels strange today after saying it out loud, to be judged. I normally don’t care what others think but this is an serious matter not to mention painful. It hurts my husband when I have a bad day and can’t remember, it’s hard on him. Thanks for the monuments.

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