I was always the odd kid out, didn’t make friends easy, would only have one friend at a time, lied to get attention and cut myself to see who cared.
When you’re abused as a child you keep your world silent, I told no one, that’s the key reason I didn’t want to have friends. My step-father was a drunk so I couldn’t invite friends over, I didn’t want to get close to someone and share my secret.
Junior High is a tumultuous time for all teens, trying to figure out who we are, soon going to eight grade and being the rookie again.
I hated myself, when your abused everyday and called names that are horrible, it’s easy to believe overtime the evil thrown at you is real.
In sixth grade, I tried drugs and spent every morning across from the school huffing paint. Any escape worked for me no matter how small.
I walked home and provided a great target for bullies. First is was pushing, calling me a slut and anything else a sixth grader could come up with. It escalated to a dangerous level when a rumor started that I made fun of my best friend that had a cleft palate. We were friends from birth, they lived next door.
Kids would come from behind, hit me over the head with a coke bottle, throw rocks at me and pushing me to the ground. It then escalated to a fight in her backyard with thirty of my classmates looking on. I didn’t fight back, it would do no good, just took what was dished out. She pushed me down and my head hit the side of the pool, I was bleeding.
This was going to be hard to hide from my mother, a scratch on my face and a bleeding head. I looked quietly for the supplies to fix myself only to get caught. I was so humiliated, my drunk step-father went over to their house and was going to kick her dad’s ass. This is one example of why my pain physical and mental was hidden from the world. I didn’t even tell my grandparents.
Bullying happens everyday via social media and pressures at school. It may look different but the pain of bullying still hurts and cuts very deep. Stay close to your children and who and what they are doing on social media.