Fibromyalgia Thoughts #2

I’m reposting for Fibromyalgia Awareness Month.

Melinda

The pain has moved to my lower body, it attacks every joint and muscle I have. For the past 10 days, my leg has caused a big problem, it’s hard to walk. Any pressure on my leg makes me scream out in pain.

I can’t stand up by myself unless there are objects strong enough to pull me up. My husband isn’t a little guy and it takes two or three tries because I start to cry out. I have no idea what is happening, this level of pain is new for me. It’s not so much the level but the time in constant pain.

I’ve been going to bed between 4:30-6:30 p.m. every night thinking resting is the only answer. So far that seems to be the case. I can now move my knee closer to a normal sitting position. Try getting on and off the toilet, it’s been a painful 10 days.

I’ve forced myself to bed in order to get better. I’m not looking for total pain relief, that’s not my goal. Right now I want to be able to get out of a chair by myself. The rest of my body feels the normal everyday dull pain, my shoulder still screams out at night. Pain meds, topical patches and ointments the doctor gave me on Friday have provided no relief.

I’m laying in bed with one leg balancing the computer, trying not to walk any more than I have to. It’s a beautiful day after the storms we had yesterday, I want to see what the damage to my flowers but it will wait.

I am feeling significantly better by resting but letting life pass me by is not my personality. I always try to bulldoze my way through any pain but I’ve never cried or had this level of pain. I remain optimistic this is not the new norm if there is a norm with Fibromyalgia.

I started a new book which helps me go to bed earlier and stay connected to the world. Tomorrow is a new day, a day with possibly less pain.