I’m having an emotional crisis right now
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I’m having an emotional crisis right now

Looking for the Light

I was reading more about the three officers who shot a mentally ill woman thru the door. The three officers were fired but an investigation into the entire department needs to take place. What I saw on television, got to me.

It brought up the repressed memory of having a non-violent crisis in the front yard. Long story short I had an officer pull a gun on me. I never processed the trauma probably because I was fighting for my life with Lyme winning. I’ve been crying ever since the memory came back and I’ve been in bed crying.

I don’t know when I’ll be active when I stop crying or in August when I meet my new Psychiatrist. It’s deplorable that a woman considered wealthy, with great insurance, and doctors could not check me into a psychiatric hospital last night.

My crying is for all the others who don’t have my resources, what happens to those on the opposite end are often killed during a Mental Health call because Police have no training.

The governor looked into the eyes of all the families of mass gun shootings, promising to do something, no gun control because that’s not the issue. That’s the BS line from all Republicans. So he tells people at their most devastating moment he is going to make changes. HE sure did, he passed a 2 Billion Mental Health Bill and not one penny goes for Mental Health Services. All of the money is being spent to build new jails and jails with Psych hospitals. His stigma against those who are mentally ill says you all belong in jail. That set me on fire!!!!!

I’m going down the drain right now and will post when I can.

Melinda

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  3. Melinda, I’m so sorry you are having such a horrible time. Mental health certainly needs better treatment from the powers that be. Good for you for sending those emails. That must have been stressful but felt good to do at the same time. I hope you are doing better and get some positive responses from your emails. Hugs, Roze

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    1. Hey Roze, Thanks for the kind words. I’m spending most of the day in bed crying and when I have energy I write a few more government officials. I’m also collecting a ton of research so that I can write an Op-Ed for all the newspapers and magazines in Texas. Once my Therapist returns from her surgery I can start the process of dealing with my repressed memory. My devotion to people with Mental Illness has never been stronger. Have a great day.

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          1. I always said that once people get into positions of government, it corrupts them. They think they have power and it goes to their heads and some abuse it… yes, email them…

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  5. I can only try and imagine the fury you’re feeling M. How these policymakers are treating those that are mentally ill in this way in the 19th century let alone the 21st century is staggering. The incompetence and lack of understanding is criminal in itself.

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    1. If I were not so sick fighting Lyme I would have taken a card from each officer, files complaints on all of them, and sued the city. But I could barely get out of bed at the time. Since the memory came back I sent emails to the Chief of Police and the person in charge of Mental Health Training. If I really had it together I would a filed a civil suit against her. My deepest pain is for the next mentally ill person who is beaten, or as usual shoots them. I don’t know how to diffuse my anger. My therapist is out on surgery. I’ve spent my time in bed 3/4 of the day crying or thinking about all the officials in my town and the state. Our Governor is vile and not an environment that would welcome you with open arms. He’s already passed some bills against the LBGQT+ and taken benefits away. I believe he will continue to focus on cutting spending on his stigma issues, abortion, and the abortion pill, now he passes a 2 Billoin dollar which the Bill stated the money was for and then spends the money covering his ass because he never addressed/spent money on our jail crisis. What does that say, to me it says he thinks the mentally ill need to be in psych wards.

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