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Month: July 2023
Blogger Highlight-She the bald blogger
Thank you for all the great feedback on the Blogger Highlight series, I’ve enjoyed meeting each blogger and sharing their site with you. This week we highlight a new blogger, She the bald blogger.
She the bald blogger
Hello my fellow readers!!..I’m Anshika from India.I’m 18 and currently pursuing Bachelor’s of science. I love writing, listening to music, art and styling up!!..and my main hobby is to take a lot of stress and crack bad jokes..rofl 🙂
I’ve had struggled with alopecia for 3 years of my life.When i went through extreme hair thinning,dandruff ,oily scalp issues and literally nothing sort of treatment worked for me that’s when i lost my patience and decided to shave my head off. It literally took hell lot of courage and wasn’t as easy as it sounds 😦 .After crying for all day long, finally gathered some strength and decided to open my blog on WordPress. So here I’m to motivate,share my feelings and to change the definition of beauty. There are many people out there who don’t beautiful or confident enough just because of their looks. I want to empower them and help them with their insecurities.
She may be young but she has some great ideas.
Melinda
Let Me Tell You Where I’ve Been, You’ll Never Guess
I have not been on an exotic island, no ocean, no mountains not even to the spa. Although all sound good.
Last week my depression drug me into a hole I could not get out and I signed into my favorite Psych Hospital on Friday for Electro Convulsive Therapy (ECT). Many still have the images of One Flew Over The CoKoos Nest. That movie was dramatized although ECT was more difficult until doctors learned that by using a muscle relaxer along with the drugs the anesthesiologist uses it’s really a piece of cake. I usually have a headache and Friday I felt jaw pain but it didn’t last long.
It takes longer to prepare you than the treatment itself. ECT makes you have a convulsion to get your brain to change channels. The number of treatments you need will vary, I’m hoping 5 is my magic number because I don’t want to have to roll into the following week. My husband has taken off so much time coming to see me every day but next week he will get really backed up at work. As he says, we do what we have to.
Trama
After meeting with the doctor for 10-15 minutes the doctor had the nerve to tell me:
I wasn’t Bipolar
Was overmedicated
My doctor had not taken care of me over the last 32 years
He said I did not have Dementia and should not take any of the meds I’m taking. In 2017 I saw a Neurologist about my Dementia, I scored a 17, very bad, on Thursday when I did the test I’m up to 21. Not great but it tells me the meds are slowing the progression.
*He had no right to say that to me, I’m in a Psych Hospital, the last thing you tell a person in distress is that type of information. He is an ass and I didn’t believe one word. My Psych doctor was surprised, he thought this doctor was a good one. I’ve already sent emails to the Chair of Psychiatry, Psych doctor, my therapist, and cc my husband. KARMA IS A BITCH!
Don’t let any doctor shake your confidence in the team you have. I would tell your doctor what was said but do not take anyone’s ideas except for your own doctor. I got mad as hell and wanted too much of him but knew better.
Cherry on Top
I almost laughed my ass off when he said that when I don’t get my way I act out. That has never been my personality and people that know me would say the opposite.
ECT
I had a treatment on Friday and will go back outpatient next week, going M, W & F. The worst thing about ECT to me is they have lower some of my medication right away and hold the others the night and morning of treatment. By the time they came to get me for ECT, it was going on at 11:00, and I was in full-blown withdrawal. Crying, wailing, asking for God’s help, my entire body was shaking, I could barely walk, and was starting to hyperventilate. Missing two Xanax sends me over the edge. I will be in withdrawal there days next week. It’s going to be a very rough week but we have to do what we have to do.
If you have a serious Mental Illness including Bipolar Disorder PLEASE don’t pass on ECT because it works miracles and it’s nothing like the movie which was overly dramatic, which sells movie tickets. Not the whole truth.
I’m still sore in a few places like my jaw but it’s much better than yesterday.
I have written a post on ECT before and will write another post on the history of treatments available for Mental Illness, you’ll be how barbaric it was before ECT.
I’m glad to be home, resting, and about to tackle some laundry.
I won’t be posting much since I only have two days without ECT. Then I hope to get back on my regular schedule. I’ve thought of many topics while in the hospital.
If you have any questions about ECT, leave me a comment and I’ll answer the best I can.
Melinda
I’m Back!
I just arrived home and will follow up with a full run down tomorrow.
Thank you so much for all the wonderful comments you have left, that is a huge reward for me.
Melinda
Creating A Healthy Romantic Relationship In Three Simple Steps
Creating a healthy romantic relationship can be hard for anyone, whether you have any kind of medical condition or not. But, sometimes it’s the people who are struggling the most with other aspects of their lives that find it the most difficult to have a romantic relationship. There are many reasons why this would be the case, but it’s important to understand that no matter what, it is possible if you want it to happen. In this article, we’re going to be taking a look at three things that you are going to need if you want to achieve this goal, so keep reading if you would like to find out more.
Communicate
The first step to creating a healthy relationship is to communicate. Communication is the key to pretty much everything in life, including this. You are never going to get anywhere if you are unable to communicate with the people in your life that you are interested in, and this is especially the case if you are trying to have a romantic relationship. You have got to be able to talk about everything, knowing that you are safe and secure and that you feel heard.
Communication is a two-way street. You need to be listening to understand, not to respond, and you need to be willing to lay your feelings out as they are. Sometimes it gets messy, but as long as you are able to work through everything, that’s the main goal.
Trust
In order for there to be a healthy romantic relationship, you have got to trust the other person. There is no relationship if there is not a solid foundation of trust, and that’s what you need to understand. We know that it can be tough to believe someone when they say that they love you, or that they are never going to leave no matter what, but unless they give you a reason to believe otherwise, you have to trust their word.
You cannot live in a relationship where you are constantly second-guessing what is being said to you, or you don’t feel comfortable.
Understand
The final thing that we are going to say is that you have got to be understanding in a relationship. You have got to be willing to work through the hard times as well as the good times, even when it feels like there is nothing left there. But, at the same time, if there is nothing left and you need to look at a divorce attorney, do this before it gets nasty, and try to remain amicable. A relationship can still be healthy, even if it’s ending.
We hope that you have found this article helpful, and now see some of the things that you are going to need to do if you want to create a healthy romantic relationship. For people with chronic illness, it can be really hard to have these because in some cases the self-sabotage is real, but you can get there if you are willing to put the effort in. We wish you the very best of luck and hope that you manage to have a healthy and happy relationship going forward.
This is a collaborative post.
Melinda
The Latest Development
I may be out of touch for a couple of weeks. I’m not sure when my computer will be available.
I’m checking into the hospital for a week of testing then moving to Psychiatric Hospital for ECT Treatments. I plan to get 3 ETC Treatments in-house and then move to outpatient treatment. Comparing my depression to other times I’ve needed ECT, I may need at least 6-9 treatments.
My depression, which I’ve kept from my husband and Therapist, has taken a nose dive to a dark and scary place. I started thinking about suicide and knew it was time to reach out.
Don’t follow my example! As soon as you feel depression coming on please share and ask for help.
I thought I would die quietly like my gramps but he didn’t have other illnesses making it quite painful at times.
I don’t normally write about my situations as they are going on but wanted you to know why I’ve disappeared.
Thank you so much for being there and sending your love.
Melinda
I’m Checking In
I’m doing better by taking my anger out on politicians by writing to them and the local news in Austin. It’s made a small dent.
My Therapist doesn’t return from surgery for a week or two. Once she’s back I can start to process why two repressed memories came back, I’m hoping we can talk thru them in a couple of sessions, who knows.
I see my Nephrologist on the 19th, wow my birthday, and will know after labs if I’ve progressed to Stage 4 Kidney Disease. If I have progressed to Stage 4, I will start to close down all my sites as the time I have to live will be greatly reduced. I spend most of the day in bed because of symptoms from Kidney disease, I’m having trouble catching my breath and Fibro is raising its ugly head.
I have written several posts in my head and maybe tomorrow I’ll be able to publish at least one.
Thank you for being a big part of my life, the memories never end. Hugs!
Melinda
Governor Greg Abbott Turns Gun On Texas Again!
Blogger Highlight-I Believe in Daffodils
Thank you for all the great feedback on the Blogger Highlight series, I’ve enjoyed meeting each blogger and sharing their site with you. This week we highlight a new blogger, I Believe in Daffodils.
I believe in Daffodils
Inspire, forgive and self care
Welcome!
Yes, I have officially welcomed you to; I believe in Daffodils.
May this blog contribute to your daily dose of Awesomeness!
I will be posting regularly on my thoughts, life experiences, and channeling into self care.
Welcome! 2023… Let’s do this!
Melinda
The DEA’s Mission is Hurting The Mentally Ill
Here are some basics I’ve learned after one of the drugs I take could not be found in several surrounding cities month after month. This fight to find my drug each month forced me to withdraw and start a medication that is not targeted yet.
If you take Xanax and related drugs or take stimulant medication in the United States you may find yourself without access to your prescription.
The DEA digging everywhere they can to catch doctors who overprescribe and the people who are selling their drugs on the street.
I highly respect what the DEA is doing to prevent overdosing, and arresting doctors who overprescribe Controlled Substance drugs. I was in shock by how dangerous Health Apps can be. In this case, the App referred all its participants to an unlicensed doctor who was overprescribing and even writing prescriptions for those that did not have one. Unless you have a death wish, I would not buy any drugs from Health Apps or Social Media.
If you take one of the targeted medications and have trouble filling your prescription every month because it’s on backorder. DON’T take your anger out on the pharmacy, it is totally out of their hands. Your anger needs to target the problem, The DEA.
Prescriptions for Controlled Substances CAN NOT be transferred to another pharmacy, PERIOD!
Here is the most important action you can take to reduce stress when trying to get your Controlled Substance medication filled. Don’t have your doctor call in a refill yet.
A week before your monthly prescription is due for a refill call your pharmacy to see if they have it in stock. If not call all the other pharmacies in your area to find where there is stock. Then ask your doctor to send in a refill, the sooner the better. You have survived a month but every month you may have to use another pharmacy if you can find it.
The DEA is leaving people who take their drugs legally, from a legitimate doctor left holding the bag. Many like myself can’t find their drug month after month and will find themselves in withdrawal and having to try something close that is not the target now. Your doctor will know.
If you would like to join me in anger, start learning more about the DEA and flood them with messages.
Melinda
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