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Melinda
I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder but did not take it seriously until my father committed suicide at 52 years old. He put a gun in his mouth and it was a terrible scene. After he died I started reading about Bipolar Disorder, it said that 75% of children whose parents kill themselves will do the same. At that point, I decided I need some professional help.
Bipolar Disorder can present itself in many ways and it’s important to know so you can contact your doctor when in trouble. I’m on the depressive side and rarely go into a hypo state and have never been manic. I had a problem in the late 90s where I was switching, so one day depressed, and one day I would be fine, and then boom, I’m depressed. You need to have a Psychiatrist who can keep working on the right mix of medication to keep you stable. When looking for a Psychiatrist, the key thing to ask is do they treat Bipolar Disorder.
The most important task every day is to take your medication. I get tired of taking so many pills but I know that’s what it takes to keep me going.
Get rid of your stigmas and shut out all the people in your life who don’t care to understand or have their own stigma. You need to cut all the negatives out of you’re life as possible. I’ve quit watching the Nightly News because politics get me worked up. It’s been a big relief.
There is nothing to be ashamed of, you have an illness just like others have an illness.
Take time out every day for self-care, it could be enjoying the fresh air and listening to the birds, taking a hot bath with essential oils to calm you down, or anything you can take time out to pamper yourself is good for your mental health.
Keep all appts. with your doctor. I would also recommend seeing a therapist too. I’ve been seeing my team for over 30 years.
Take the time to learn about your illness but don’t over-focus on it. You need to know what you’re dealing with but don’t second guess your doctor. Not everything you read on the Internet is correct. Go to reliable sites for information.
If you swing to the manic state, it may feel good but as my doctor says, what comes up must come down and you won’t like the coming down part. Being manic can cause you to think differently and you can get yourself in trouble very fast.
Stay on top of your refills, you don’t want to miss any days of your medication.
Share you’re story with someone you trust, you may have to explain your illness to them but you need someone on your side. You also need someone who can tell when you’re not yourself and alert you before you slide one way or another.
You have to understand when you are at your limit. If you are thinking about suicide, now is the time to raise your hand. Call your friend for support. Worst case scenario go to the local Emergency Room.
It can seem overwhelming at first, but with good information, a great Psychiatrist and Therapist, and a friend you can trust, you have a good safety net.
Melinda
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I have tested most of the Vital Fields products and they have never let me down. It’s hard to explain how these two work but they did have a positive impact.
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To your health,
Melinda
I want to thank Trigger Publishing Editor Andrea Marchiano for sharing Sometimes by Joann Howeth. I have enjoyed and learned so much from children’s books. Parents today have a choice of what tools they use to raise their children. There are no children’s books like the ones from Trigger, you must check out their complete selection of children’s and teen’s books.
These are great books for Grandparents to have around so they can reinforce the way you’re trying to help your child.

Sometimes, life can feel overwhelming. Sometimes, we cling to things that we should let go of. And sometimes, those who are closest to us are the ones who hurt us the most. Despite what others may tell us, during these times, the best thing we can do is talk.
In this honest and poignant story, Joann Howeth reminds us of what can happen behind closed doors and, in doing so, encourages kids to tell their own stories to ensure they get the support they need. A must-have for every library, classroom, and therapist’s office, this book will reassure struggling children that they are not alone and help them find a safe and healthy outlet for their troubles.
This is the most serious children’s book I’ve read and think all children need to read this book because it shows them that sometimes you have to tell your secrets to someone you can trust. This book will help children struggling with divorce, lack of money, or other struggles that go on behind closed doors. One very important piece of information is missing, it’s her name. This goes along with her secret.
She has many secrets that she keeps to herself and the pressure it puts on her is heavy. Her Dad is gone and her mother is in a bad place, it could be from mental health issues or she just can’t make ends meet. Often times when she goes to the refrigerator there is no milk, or when she wants to wash her hair there is no shampoo and the house is stacked full and running over including the moldy dishes.
She is not allowed to participate in school activities or go to barbecues and is isolated from friends because she doesn’t want anyone to know her secrets.
She feels so alone and embarrassed and her mother has said no one can come into their house. She has no friends except the neighbor who is kind to her. Her room is filled with items her mother has collected and it crowds out her sleeping space, sometimes she sleeps in a chair or will sit on the stoop.
Her neighbor has a good idea of what is going on and she offers her a string cheese, an apple, and a hug on the way home from school. One day she realized her neighbor knew what was going on and asked her not to tell. Her trusted friend, Mrs. McGeorger said sometimes you have to share with someone.
This is happening today much more than we know it and we can’t judge or blame the children. I had many secrets growing up, I was abused and my step-father was an alcoholic. I didn’t want any friends to come to my house for fear of getting a glimpse of what was truly happening. I didn’t trust anyone, that was a heavy burden for a child to carry around every day.
This book is for parents, grandparents, therapists, and schools, all children need exposure to what can happen behind closed doors, it may help a child come forward or at least make them less judgemental. I love this book, it was hard to swallow but I could relate so clearly and know there are plenty of children that have secrets.
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Melinda
Thank you for all the great feedback on the Blogger Highlight series, I’ve enjoyed meeting each blogger and sharing their site with you. This week we highlight the blog of Stella Reddy’s Blog.

My site is about how I have healed and what I did to achieve that. I am open about my mistakes, share all I have experienced and learned, and share my innermost thoughts over it all. I made a site about me, to be found with theirs, in case anyone is interested if not, that’s okay too. I do it for my own peace of mind, knowing my truth is there, to drown out their nastiness in my name.
Always, upwards and onwards!!
You will love her blog and she’s great to talk to.
Melinda
In this fast-paced social media world, it can be difficult to find the time to look within or back in time. I hope you find these quotes and questions interesting. So glad you stopped by today!
It’s the weekend!!!!!!
I’m so glad you’ve joined me this week for another edition of Weekend Music Share.

Have a great weekend!
Melinda
Welcome back to Weekend Music Share, the place where everyone can share their favorite music.
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There are more Health Apps than a year ago and it’s getting crowded so you may be inclined to pick one. BEWARE! More research is needed before you ever sign up! One important thing to remember is these Apps are not regulated, as some Apps are unscrupulous including where your information is being shared, and more importantly are the Therapists and doctors who are providing support are licensed.
Let me tell you about an App that offered the services of a medical doctor. The App would refer people to the doctor and the doctor was a fraud! The medical doctor who would write pain medication was not a licensed doctor. The DEA got wind of this and started watching him. They busted the doctor for prescribing more pills than allowed, writing his own scripts when the patients didn’t have one and if I recall correctly he had prescribed over 15,000 scripts for pain meds, many patients were left addicted to pain meds and had to find help elsewhere. He is spending only 5 years in jail, that is the scary part.

When an App includes the service of a Therapist or Medical Doctor you have to make sure they have the proper license to do so. One way I would do it is look ask what doctor they use and then do a search on them. Find out they are legit. The same with a Therapist, the wrong Therapist can set you back not moving forward. I would check them out as well.
Then I would look closely at the Privacy Policy, and read carefully who they are sharing your information with. Some are sharing your information with hospitals doing research for which they are probably paid to share. If the Privacy Policy doesn’t spell it out, that would be a red flag for me. I would write them and ask where your information is being shared. You’re not signing up to help a research project, your signing up because you want help. If someone is sharing your information, my thought is there in it for money. Beware.
Ask around to see who has used the App in the past or what other App they use. You have to look at it like finding a new doctor. You don’t throw a dart to pick one, you check them out first. I would also do research on the App it’s self, see what you find on the Internet about them. You may be surprised. I’ve written about several Apps in the past and can tell you one is already out of business.
Take a step back before you join any App and make sure you’re getting what you expect, not that wako doctor with no license prescribing medicine of any type.
Melinda
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In America we have the FDA to approve all prescription medications, manufacturers have to prove their drug has all the data on clinical trials, and they even do down to approving what the label can have on it. If the FDA is not satisfied the FDA will tell the manufacturer to go get this information and reapply. That’s critical to know. In America, we have a system that all prescriptions go thru before being released to the public. They also have a section you can report adverse reactions or a medical device that failed. We have a system.
I know that people with chronic illnesses especially those with chronic pain have trouble getting the pain management they need and out of frustration turn to the Internet. BEWARE!

There are other countries that have a system in place but we have no idea if it matches our standards. There are also countries that have no system to verify the drugs are pure, they do what they say and they are monitored.
The FDA says this about online Pharmacies.
If you buy from any online site from another country, you have no guarantee of what’s inside. It could cause more harm to your body, it could have nothing in there to help you, and the worst is it can be laced with different products and can kill you.
That’s strong words I know but I have read too many articles and heard of personal stories where buying online was the worst move to make.
Melinda
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Yes, there are ligament Pharmacies online, I would check them out before you buy. Do an Internet search on the Pharmacy. You may be surprised what you find or you see they are legit Pharmacies you can go to. The key is what country is your medication coming from.
Where you can protect yourself is to search, search, and search before buying. Your health and life are more important. Personally, I would not buy a drug online unless my insurance company offers an online Pharmacy.
I haven’t seen the movie but I have heard about it for years. The key thing to remember is this is a movie, an overdramatic movie. Was Electro Convulsive Therapy more difficult in the old days yes, before doctors figured out that muscle relaxers would stop the body movements there was the possibility of breaking a bone.

So if you take out the overdramatic scenes that are barbaric you would probably see something still very scary. But ECT has come a long way and I want to take you back to before ECT and you will see that even in its infancy ECT was a much better option.
Before ECT they did Lobotomies which left the person unable to function without full-time help. I don’t know how the procedure is done but It’s been described as a screwdriver was put thru your Frontal Lobe. Rosemary Kennedy had the procedure and it changed the family’s life forever. You see, much of our thinking is in the Frontal Lobe. Her parents thought they were the right thing but they were not prepared for what the outcome was.
You can see how a Lobotomy took her life away. Thank goodness doctors learned how to do ECT. Yes, it was difficult initially but now it’s a piece of cake. Friday I get my 27th ECT treatments in 20 years. I have Bipolar Disorder and stay mostly on the depressed side. Two weeks ago I was ready to kill myself, I always tell my husband when I get suicidal. I went into a Psych Hospital for a week for treatment and observation then moved to outpatient. It’s hard to say out loud that I’ve had 27 treatments, that sounds like a lot. But when you start planning to kill yourself it’s a small price to pay for getting well.
Now it’s so easy and it’s over before you even know. Most times I wake up from Anesthesia and think I’m still waiting for treatment. Here’s what you can expect for ECT, first you have to remember everyone is different and so is their level of depression and those with more serious Mental Illnesses may require more or less treatment. For me, the number seems to be between 6 to 9 treatments to get me out of the dark hole I’m in.
You will come into the ECT area and with your clothes on the nurse goes thru your medication, checks your blood pressure and you pee in a cup. Then you are moved to the operating room where you talk to the doctor and Anesthesiologist. I often get sick after so they add something to the mix that will take care of getting sick. The shoe on one foot will be exposed so they can tell when the seizure is over. You are hooked up to an EKG monitor and two stickies are put on your forehead. Then two stickies are put behind your ear to monitor the seizure. You start to feel the medicine take effect and an oxygen mask is put on. It takes less than 5-10 minutes and you are back in recovery. You won’t remember anything after you go off to sleep and the only lingering effects might be a headache and some jaw pain.
I take a baggie with two Tynenol and one Xanax to take as soon as I get back to the truck. My husband stops by the coffee shop and gets me a cold Latte and off to the house we go. The first day you may be tired. I often will go lie down after I eat and wake feeling well rested. Sometimes you have to go in very early and I need my sleep.
If you are so depressed it interferes with your life, your sleeping all the time, you don’t care to do the things you once did or you want to kill yourself, it’s time to raise your hand and ask for help. One tip I will give you from my own experience is don’t go to a Psych Hospital that is not connected to a hospital. I know that may be harder for you to find but believe me when I tell you that the stand-alone treatment centers are there to make money off of you. I spent three weeks in one and was outraged by how the patients were treated. They were zombies during the day and given medication to make them sleep. The only place to have any type of activity was the table we ate lunch on. I stood my ground and did not let them change my medication. I received no kindness, no support, no dignity really. I stayed in my room and read. That is not the type of place that is going to get you well.
If you have a Mental Illness that causes you to have big swings into depression start now looking for the nearest respected hospital that has a Psych Unit. The care you get is night and day and that is the only reason I can write today.
If you have any questions I would be happy to answer any and all questions you have. ECT has saved my life many times over the past 20 years and I can tell you it’s much better than death.
Melinda
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https://www.jfklibrary.org/learn/about-jfk/the-kennedy-family/rosemary-kennedy
Thank you for all the great feedback on the Blogger Highlight series, I’ve enjoyed meeting each blogger and sharing their site with you. This week we highlight a new blogger, Second Chances.

CONTENT GUIDANCE: This blog has strong language, explores aspects of mental health, domestic violence ,drug abuse, alcohol abuse, and suicide. Please read with caution!
Hi all!!! I’m Rae,37 year old mom, blogger,AR analyst,addiction advocate/coach. My all time favorite time of year is fall 🍁🍁🍁.
Her blog covers many serious topics and I know you will find her post enjoyable.
Melinda
How can I say that? We are emotional people, even those who try to be strong will have crises. When a spouse or child dies, a bad car wreck, you lose your job, your child is addicted to drugs, the list goes on. This is not a mental illness it’s an emotional crisis from what is happening in your life.
My crisis started with low-grade depression, being diagnosed with Kidney Disease, my husband being diagnosed with two types of cancer, and I had two repressed memories come back to me. With all that being down on me, I couldn’t handle it anymore.

We’ve all had or will have something traumatic happen that will affect us deeply and cause emotional distress. We are human beings and as such we do get emotional scars we have to work thru. Sometimes it’s as simple as talking to someone and having a good cry, other times you may need a Therapist to work thru the pain. They are trained to listen and talk about ways to help you cope. I’ve been seeing a Therapist for 30 years, she has helped me process the trauma of my childhood and is a good ear when a new issue comes up and I’m not sure how to handle it.

According to Vice Chair of Adult Psychology Elissa Epel, Ph.D., If you feel in crisis or overwhelmed, it may be helpful for you to make a list of what you can and cannot control right now. In this guide, we suggest radical acceptance of the situations we cannot control, and focus on what we can do.
I’ve experienced my share of trauma and have moved past the pain, it was holding me back in life. My Therapist was a big part of overcoming the trauma that ruled my life and I am stronger for it. I believe stress and trauma can turn your life upside down. I’ve already stopped watching the national news, too much politics that get me extremely worked up. I feel less stressed already.
Before you experience an emotional crisis, look at your habits, really examine your life and cut negative people out of your life, I don’t care if they are family, you don’t want negative influences around you. If your friends aren’t supportive of you, they are not your friends, if politics get you jacked up, don’t watch the news.
I think social media can have a negative effect on our health. The way I look at social media is it’s a place I share my post with. I follow very few people and I always assume the person on the other end is not who they say they are. That’s reality. You see news stories every day of stalking, raping, or trolling. If you have a mindset that people are not who they say they are, you won’t get pulled into a bad situation. That might sound harsh but it’s a reality. You do not know the person on the other end, and you don’t know their motive, instead look at them as Social Media friends, not the type of friends you have in your life outside of Social Media.
We can never prepare for when an emotional crisis will hit us, we can do everything right and we’re still going to face a crisis in our life. Talk to someone, don’t keep it inside for the pain and stress don’t go away on their own.
When my grandparents died I was devastated, how could I live without them, they were my rock and my parents because my parents were abusing me. Long before I went into therapy, my granny was the one I talked to about teenage trauma. She always said it would pass, I would say if your emotional crisis is interfering in your life in the least, go talk to a therapist.
I’ve worked thru most of my emotional crisis but still have two repressed memories to discuss, luckily they are not interfering in my life and I will see my Therapist soon.
An emotional crisis is NOT a mental illness, I will say as a person with Bipolar Disorder that an emotional crisis can bring on depression but being depressed about losing someone you love is natural and from our heart. It’s when our heart is breaking that an emotional crisis can happen.
Melinda
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It’s the weekend!!!!!!
I’m so glad you’ve joined me this week for another edition of Weekend Music Share.
Have a great weekend!
Melinda
Welcome back to Weekend Music Share; the place where everyone can share their favorite music.
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I miss her voice so much, she left us too soon. We still have her memories.
Melinda

The National Alliance on Mental Illness is highly respected not only for its advocacy work but for the resources that are available for free. They have an extensive library of previous posts in English and Spanish and they update often. They work with our Government to advocate for more services and better treatment for mentally ill patients.

NAMI envisions a world where all people affected by mental illness live healthy, fulfilling lives supported by a community that cares.
NAMI provides advocacy, education, support and public awareness so that all individuals and families affected by mental illness can build better lives.
The National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) is the nation’s largest grassroots mental health organization dedicated to building better lives for the millions of Americans affected by mental illness.
What started as a small group of families gathered around a kitchen table in 1979 has blossomed into the nation’s leading voice on mental health. Today, we are an alliance of more than 600 local Affiliates and 49 State Organizations who work in your community to raise awareness and provide support and education that was not previously available to those in need.
At NAMI, we believe a diverse, inclusive and equitable organization (or Alliance) is one where all employees, volunteers and members — regardless of gender, race, gender identity, ethnicity, national origin, age, sexual orientation, education, disability, veteran status or other dimension of diversity — feel valued and respected.
We are committed to a nondiscriminatory approach and to providing equal opportunity for employment, participation and advancement in all programs and worksites.
NAMI not only has a site full of resources but they also have locations across the United States. Look to find an office near you. I support their work 100% and believe in their work so much they are one of the charities I give to each year.
If you need any help with your Mental Illness turn to NAMI’s resources to help you thru the issue you are struggling with. I love how they have a section on how to talk with family and friends about your illness.
Melinda
Are you a fan of rock concerts, lively city streets, or perhaps adrenaline-fueled activities? While these experiences can be thrilling, have you considered the possible impact they have on your delicate ears? In this revealing blog post, we delve into the realm of high-decibel noise exposure and its harmful effects on our hearing abilities. From understanding the science of ear damage to exploring practical preventive measures, join us on this exploratory journey as we reveal how something as trivial as a few extra decibels can have lasting consequences. Get ready to prioritize your auditory health like never before.
High-decibel noise exposure ranks amongst the leading causes of hearing loss. It can occur gradually over time or instantaneously due to a one-off exposure to loud noise. Unfortunately, hearing loss from noise exposure is irreversible. If you’ve suffered hearing damage due to an accident that wasn’t your fault, contact the likes of Schuerger Shunnarah trial attorneys as soon as possible.
Temporary threshold shift: Here, your hearing is temporarily impacted by loud noise but typically recovers within a few hours or days.
Permanent threshold shift: This refers to when your hearing is permanently damaged by loud noise, an irreversible condition.
Noise-induced hearing loss: This type of permanent threshold shift leads to a gradual deterioration in hearing over time.
Tinnitus: This is characterized by a ringing, buzzing, or other noise you perceive in your ears or head without any external source. Both temporary and permanent threshold shifts can trigger tinnitus.
High-decibel noise exposure is a frequent cause of ear damage, leading to permanent hearing loss over time. It can also result in tinnitus (ringing in the ears) and vertigo (dizziness). There are several strategies to prevent ear damage due to loud noise:
There are numerous long-term effects of hearing loss resulting from high-decibel noise exposure. Some of these effects include:
Hyperacusis: A condition in which sounds are perceived as being far louder than they are. This can make everyday activities such as phone conversations or movie outings challenging.
Dizziness: People with hearing loss often report dizziness and balance issues. This is because the inner ear plays a pivotal role in maintaining balance.
If you’ve been exposed to high-decibel noise and are experiencing any of these symptoms, it’s crucial to consult a doctor for a thorough hearing evaluation. Neglected hearing loss can lead to social isolation, depression, and even dementia. So, don’t delay – have your hearing assessed today!
If you’ve been exposed to high-decibel noise, either through work or recreational activities, it’s vital to be aware of the potential ear damage. Here are some tips on managing and treating ear damage from such exposure:
In Conclusion
Exposure to high-decibel noise can severely impact your hearing and should never be underestimated. Understanding the ramifications of prolonged exposure is crucial as it can cause permanent ear damage over time. Proactive measures such as wearing protective headphones, limiting exposure to loud noises, and steering clear from areas with high sound levels are all effective ways to reduce your risk of hearing loss or other adverse effects caused by long-term exposure to loud noise.
This is a collaborative post.
Melinda
I remember the blistering days of summer spent playing with the Slippery Slide and the Wiggle Worm. All you could hear is us laughing so hard and having a blast.
If life were so simple now.
Melinda

Thank you for all the great feedback on the Blogger Highlight series, I’ve enjoyed meeting each blogger and sharing their site with you. This week we highlight a new blogger, She the bald blogger.

Hello my fellow readers!!..I’m Anshika from India.I’m 18 and currently pursuing Bachelor’s of science. I love writing, listening to music, art and styling up!!..and my main hobby is to take a lot of stress and crack bad jokes..rofl 🙂
I’ve had struggled with alopecia for 3 years of my life.When i went through extreme hair thinning,dandruff ,oily scalp issues and literally nothing sort of treatment worked for me that’s when i lost my patience and decided to shave my head off. It literally took hell lot of courage and wasn’t as easy as it sounds 😦 .After crying for all day long, finally gathered some strength and decided to open my blog on WordPress. So here I’m to motivate,share my feelings and to change the definition of beauty. There are many people out there who don’t beautiful or confident enough just because of their looks. I want to empower them and help them with their insecurities.
She may be young but she has some great ideas.
Melinda
I have not been on an exotic island, no ocean, no mountains not even to the spa. Although all sound good.

Last week my depression drug me into a hole I could not get out and I signed into my favorite Psych Hospital on Friday for Electro Convulsive Therapy (ECT). Many still have the images of One Flew Over The CoKoos Nest. That movie was dramatized although ECT was more difficult until doctors learned that by using a muscle relaxer along with the drugs the anesthesiologist uses it’s really a piece of cake. I usually have a headache and Friday I felt jaw pain but it didn’t last long.
It takes longer to prepare you than the treatment itself. ECT makes you have a convulsion to get your brain to change channels. The number of treatments you need will vary, I’m hoping 5 is my magic number because I don’t want to have to roll into the following week. My husband has taken off so much time coming to see me every day but next week he will get really backed up at work. As he says, we do what we have to.
After meeting with the doctor for 10-15 minutes the doctor had the nerve to tell me:
I wasn’t Bipolar
Was overmedicated
My doctor had not taken care of me over the last 32 years
He said I did not have Dementia and should not take any of the meds I’m taking. In 2017 I saw a Neurologist about my Dementia, I scored a 17, very bad, on Thursday when I did the test I’m up to 21. Not great but it tells me the meds are slowing the progression.
*He had no right to say that to me, I’m in a Psych Hospital, the last thing you tell a person in distress is that type of information. He is an ass and I didn’t believe one word. My Psych doctor was surprised, he thought this doctor was a good one. I’ve already sent emails to the Chair of Psychiatry, Psych doctor, my therapist, and cc my husband. KARMA IS A BITCH!
Don’t let any doctor shake your confidence in the team you have. I would tell your doctor what was said but do not take anyone’s ideas except for your own doctor. I got mad as hell and wanted too much of him but knew better.
I almost laughed my ass off when he said that when I don’t get my way I act out. That has never been my personality and people that know me would say the opposite.
I had a treatment on Friday and will go back outpatient next week, going M, W & F. The worst thing about ECT to me is they have lower some of my medication right away and hold the others the night and morning of treatment. By the time they came to get me for ECT, it was going on at 11:00, and I was in full-blown withdrawal. Crying, wailing, asking for God’s help, my entire body was shaking, I could barely walk, and was starting to hyperventilate. Missing two Xanax sends me over the edge. I will be in withdrawal there days next week. It’s going to be a very rough week but we have to do what we have to do.
If you have a serious Mental Illness including Bipolar Disorder PLEASE don’t pass on ECT because it works miracles and it’s nothing like the movie which was overly dramatic, which sells movie tickets. Not the whole truth.
I’m still sore in a few places like my jaw but it’s much better than yesterday.
I have written a post on ECT before and will write another post on the history of treatments available for Mental Illness, you’ll be how barbaric it was before ECT.
I’m glad to be home, resting, and about to tackle some laundry.
I won’t be posting much since I only have two days without ECT. Then I hope to get back on my regular schedule. I’ve thought of many topics while in the hospital.
If you have any questions about ECT, leave me a comment and I’ll answer the best I can.
Melinda
I just arrived home and will follow up with a full run down tomorrow.
Thank you so much for all the wonderful comments you have left, that is a huge reward for me.
Melinda
Creating a healthy romantic relationship can be hard for anyone, whether you have any kind of medical condition or not. But, sometimes it’s the people who are struggling the most with other aspects of their lives that find it the most difficult to have a romantic relationship. There are many reasons why this would be the case, but it’s important to understand that no matter what, it is possible if you want it to happen. In this article, we’re going to be taking a look at three things that you are going to need if you want to achieve this goal, so keep reading if you would like to find out more.
The first step to creating a healthy relationship is to communicate. Communication is the key to pretty much everything in life, including this. You are never going to get anywhere if you are unable to communicate with the people in your life that you are interested in, and this is especially the case if you are trying to have a romantic relationship. You have got to be able to talk about everything, knowing that you are safe and secure and that you feel heard.
Communication is a two-way street. You need to be listening to understand, not to respond, and you need to be willing to lay your feelings out as they are. Sometimes it gets messy, but as long as you are able to work through everything, that’s the main goal.
In order for there to be a healthy romantic relationship, you have got to trust the other person. There is no relationship if there is not a solid foundation of trust, and that’s what you need to understand. We know that it can be tough to believe someone when they say that they love you, or that they are never going to leave no matter what, but unless they give you a reason to believe otherwise, you have to trust their word.
You cannot live in a relationship where you are constantly second-guessing what is being said to you, or you don’t feel comfortable.
The final thing that we are going to say is that you have got to be understanding in a relationship. You have got to be willing to work through the hard times as well as the good times, even when it feels like there is nothing left there. But, at the same time, if there is nothing left and you need to look at a divorce attorney, do this before it gets nasty, and try to remain amicable. A relationship can still be healthy, even if it’s ending.
We hope that you have found this article helpful, and now see some of the things that you are going to need to do if you want to create a healthy romantic relationship. For people with chronic illness, it can be really hard to have these because in some cases the self-sabotage is real, but you can get there if you are willing to put the effort in. We wish you the very best of luck and hope that you manage to have a healthy and happy relationship going forward.
This is a collaborative post.
Melinda
I may be out of touch for a couple of weeks. I’m not sure when my computer will be available.
I’m checking into the hospital for a week of testing then moving to Psychiatric Hospital for ECT Treatments. I plan to get 3 ETC Treatments in-house and then move to outpatient treatment. Comparing my depression to other times I’ve needed ECT, I may need at least 6-9 treatments.
My depression, which I’ve kept from my husband and Therapist, has taken a nose dive to a dark and scary place. I started thinking about suicide and knew it was time to reach out.
Don’t follow my example! As soon as you feel depression coming on please share and ask for help.
I thought I would die quietly like my gramps but he didn’t have other illnesses making it quite painful at times.
I don’t normally write about my situations as they are going on but wanted you to know why I’ve disappeared.
Thank you so much for being there and sending your love.
Melinda
I’m doing better by taking my anger out on politicians by writing to them and the local news in Austin. It’s made a small dent.
My Therapist doesn’t return from surgery for a week or two. Once she’s back I can start to process why two repressed memories came back, I’m hoping we can talk thru them in a couple of sessions, who knows.
I see my Nephrologist on the 19th, wow my birthday, and will know after labs if I’ve progressed to Stage 4 Kidney Disease. If I have progressed to Stage 4, I will start to close down all my sites as the time I have to live will be greatly reduced. I spend most of the day in bed because of symptoms from Kidney disease, I’m having trouble catching my breath and Fibro is raising its ugly head.
I have written several posts in my head and maybe tomorrow I’ll be able to publish at least one.
Thank you for being a big part of my life, the memories never end. Hugs!
Melinda