Month: April 2017
Anne Ferran
So full of emotion, it’s beutiful.
Scenes on the death of natureSpecial Thowback Thursday * For the Survivor in You *
Are you a Survivor? Most of us have experienced trauma in our lifetime, moving forward sets your mind free and allows you back in the driver seat. There were chunks of time in my life I struggled with childhood trauma or depression left me feeling like I could not face another day. Shame from losing a job, guilt for not seeing family, another change in meds or falling into the abyss of suicidal thoughts. Sometimes we have to look back to see how far we’ve come and let the feelings of achievement soak in. The trauma of a Hacker/Cyberstalker this past month had a grip around my neck. Sleep impossible, stress, fear, lack of control, lack of understanding by family and Therapist left me feeling isolated.
I focused on examples in my life, my Granny came to mind. She experienced trauma at nine years old with the death of her father, survived as the economy slowly recovered from war, she fought until her last breath. Her and my Gramps taught me by doing, I forced myself outside to plant a flower garden while learning to walk again. Amazed at what came natural, poking for snakes, getting dirt under nails, grading the soil and working till my back hurt. I felt a deep connection to her working in the garden or watering flowers. After a few days I saw results of my hard work and realized while outside my mind quit talking.
My soul felt free, I had to stop and pat myself on the back. I would survive until the next road block. Have you taken time to give yourself credit for each step you’ve made? Today is a good day to look back to see you are moving forward.
The music this week is for the Survivor in You.
Xx M
Irises
The quote is profound. Survivors can find it hard to see the progress in positive light.
“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggles, known loss, and found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”
~Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
Mon amour, on va se flâner (Beauty of the World)
“Today, let us forget it all.” He said, meaning the bankruptcy, criminal charges and upcoming court appearances.
I looked at him in the mirror where I was washing my face. Even my skin was weary.
“Train tickets to Vieux Port.” He no longer had his cars, or driver’s license for that matter. “Première classe.”
“Remember when we first met? Strolling, feeling the Old City.” He took my hand. “Viens avec moi, mon amour. On va se flâner.”
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Beauty of the World: In this series I use an “untranslatable word” in a story. These wonderful words capture the beauty of languages around the world.
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Untranslatable Word:
Flâner (French, v.): leisurely strolling the streets.
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For more wonderfully untranslatable words, see:
- Untranslatable Words, by Tim Lomas, PhD.
- Lost in Translation: An Illustrated Compendium of Untranslatable Words, by Ella Frances Sanders
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Caregiver Tip #1, Books that Saved My Sanity
Our population is in a large up swing as “Baby Boomers” reach Social Security age which indicates the potential increased need for Caregivers. There are many stages the elderly and dying go through until death. The books below helped me maneuver the invisible line we have to cross based on their capabilities. ”
Each of the books made a profound difference in understanding which I needed
Actions I needed to potentially help with and understand the root cause of certain actions. I found with my Grannys the time frame was at breakneck speed due to her Dementia. With my Gramps we had more time together and for him to participate in his affairs which caused conflict as we transitioned over to me making decisions.
The 36 hour day by Nancy L. Mace & Peter V. Rabins
Elder Rage or Take My Father Please !, How to Survive Caring For Aging Parents by Jacqueline Marcell
The Savvy Senior, The Ultimate Guide to Health, Family, and Finances for Senior Citizens by Jim Miller
The Complete Eldercare Planner by Joy Loverde
I hope one of the books or all help you if you find yourself at a crossroad.
Xx M
Wooly Bully (Monday Music Smile: Song a Day Challenge – Day #4)
Welcome to the London
Arelow
Listening is for learning
As watching is for
Application
There are certain
Instances That can’t
Be explained,as the
All of life is truly
A mystery,that warmth
Is your body,the smile
When you said hello
Is all part of quiet storm
There’s no need for
Explanation if there
Is a spring in your
Step,just know
To learn
To watch
& never
Question
Writing Consult Update II
Aspergrass
I can smell in the air
I can taste in my mouth
The certainty of life
As the bombs dropped
From the air,we are all
Victims of happenstance
As we stand with our backs
Against the wall,how can this be
The rat and his cheese
You see, once you digress
& take on Life in the wild
The rat will always rear it’s head
Clonazapem
Stalker Alert has my Survival Skills in High Gear
Hang with me I need all of you! I’ve been to sick to meet par, now out of bed, training and will find out who Stalker. My WP sites are not working right, maybe I screwed up in knee jerk after March 22, 17 Twitter attack and Stalker making it known he was on my tail.
20 yrs ago I was stalked for 6 yrs, I’m a Survivor and will not back down or lose!
I need huge favor, start rebloging everyone on site, current and past to see if have issue, it’s one hang up on both sites, personal & Survivors. I will make rounds and reblog to see if I can see a weak,link.
Any thoughts, words or direct comments on what looks not quite right leave a comment. We can win this battle together, we are or moving forward to Survive, the answer is in plain site ? Any Hacker ideas, I don’t know how, don’t want to
Throw Back Thursday * Arthur James Recovery Strikes a Cord*
Survivors get up brush of the toxic waste and move forward. I have talked to hundreds of people over the years, one element I notice is everyone has a concept of Survival yet they are still carrying around the baggage of the trauma and may not realize their toxic
Survivors work thru the issue and take another step? Are you carrying around all the baggage, all the toxic waste thrown at us? Look straight ahead, are you moving forward
Xx M
Easter
It started as a typical Easter weekend. There was a new outfit, frilly dress, white patent leather shoes, white gloves and flowered hat. The Sunday meal was planned.
Good Friday was myster
ious. For reasons not yet clear to us, we were to spend a few hours in church, in total silence.
There was fasting, no meat, but there were eggs…so many eggs.
By evening, we were on board with the celebration.
Enter PAAS…the century-old egg dye, small tablets activated by white vinegar to produce such lovely color. We were too young to know or care why, we just loved the ritual.
My grandmother presided. A devout Catholic, immigrant from Prague, she loved Easter. We felt her joy.
Sometime during the cleanup, she excused herself, and took to the living room sofa, claiming she felt a bit tired.
She never woke up. Cardiac arrest. Age 57.
Chaos ensued. Our mom…
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Love Me Now, Make Me Feel Safe Inside?
Arthur James Bay released Recovery, his second LP this year, it’s shines like the Red Moon. Every song pulls me in or makes me move. He’s a nice guy, still has feet on ground, not on the hamster wheel. He returned all my tweets, gave me personal message @ instead of Support. He’s thankful for the support, more importantly a second chance. I wish him great success. It’s an exciting time for British music, my ear is tuned in. XxM
Stalker Monday * I Won’t Back Down! *
My STALKER sent a message on cell that read L/, it was time to take action. I asked if having fun yet and said I won’t be controlled! Here’s a great song for anyone who has someone on their back.
XxM
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