Dementia sucks, it’s fucking life sucking. I watched my granny die from Dementia, you don’t wish that type of death on anyone. Once she no longer knew who she or anyone else was it was crushing. I don’t want to die that way and have been vocal about it to the surprise of my husband, Therapist and Psychiatrist. My decision is between me and God.
I say with no emotion, I will kill myself once my mind slips and life becomes fuzzy. One day while sitting with my granny, she broke out into a rage about why gramps left her at someone else’s house. She was in her own home, I’m taking photos off the wall, she continued to escalate, banging her head on the door jam saying gramps left her and she wanted to die. I had to medicate her before she hurt one of us.
Yesterday, I watch a new show, while falling asleep I replayed the show in my mind and forgot a line the maid said. My first reaction was my memory was slipping again but as I thought about the show, I didn’t remember because the line wasn’t significant to the story. A wave of relief came over me.
Knowing when it’s a memory loss or something else can be confussing. If you know someone with memory problems, give them a break and reaffirm the statements or questions. The affirmation will help you better understand if it was a normal memory lapse or something more concerning.
Melinda
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My sister’s husband has Dementia it is an evil disease .
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Yes it is.
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This is my sister’s blog https://tesscol.wordpress.com/2019/03/14/anxiety/
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It’s a terrifying disease. Very hurting when your loved one is turned to a stranger by this disease.
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It’s so crushing to watch them slip away.
Did you get my comment about receiving the package? It’s been two weeks. I hope it shows soon. :)
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Not yet received the message. It really crushing you to see them not recognizing you or remembering some wonderful memories.
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it its, gladly I’m not there yet. most of my memory loss in from the past or possibly last week. Luckily I know who I am.
My message was did you recieve the package yet? it’s been over two weeks.
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The package is yet to reach me.
You will not forget yourself or anyone of us due to a disease. No ,we believe and hope, that you will have your memory intact.
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Thank you for the kind words, I pray the same. I can’t believe the package has taken so long. I don’t know how long I expected but not over two weeks. :)
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Am in a developing nation, things ae still quite slow. Will let you know once I get notification about its arrival.
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I know, just so ready for feedback on Ester’s and your reaction. I think your parents will be happy too.
I received a book you may want to read, The History of Bees by Maja Lunde. I haven’t started yet but know the topic is of interest to you. Have a great day. :)
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Yeah, I love bees. Am so happy waiting
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Reblogged this on Survivors Blog Here.
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