September is Suicide Prevention Month and I’ve written several posts about my experiences with suicide including my own attempt at 12 years old.
I had been contemplating suicide since I was nine years old but today was different. It was the summer I moved to live with my father, I was 12 years old and home alone.
I raided my dad’s medicine cabinet and took all the pills I could find then grabbed a bottle of Southern Comfort and started drinking.
As I got drunk and the pills started to work so I decided to go next door and talk with my neighbor. Not to share my plan but I was higher than a kite.
We continued talking and she noticed I appeared more than drunk and noticed a red line going up my arm. She asked if I had taken anything and I said yes, I planned to die.
She called my father who was 30 minutes away, by the time he got there I was in pretty bad shape. I was rushed to the hospital and my stomach was pumped.
A failed attempt.
It is important to understand that anyone can reach a point so low they consider suicide at any age. The best thing you can do is look for signs someone may be depressed and getting too low or suicidal.
Here are a few of my own thoughts:
Failing Grades when a good student
Talks about dying
Starts giving away their personal belongings
Cashes out their back accounts
Jumps right on a task that has been overdue with enthusiasm
These are from my personal experience with suicide including my father’s.
If you are having suicidal thoughts please contact one of the resources below, a local resource, or go to your local hospital.
Press 1, Veterans Crisis Line USA
Press 2, Se Habla Español
TheTrevorProject.org (LGBTQ Youth)
TrevorChat (7 days/week from 3PM–10PM ET / noon–3PM PT)
TrevorText — text START to 678-678 (Mon–Fri, 3PM–10PM ET / noon–3PM PT)
Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255
Veterans Crisis Line: 1-800-273-8255 press 1
I’ll be writing more throughout the month about my personal experiences including that of my father’s suicide.
I’m here for any questions or feedback.