I wrote this post many years ago, I think the last one written was #17. This was written during a difficult time when Fibro ruled my life. I haven’t had a bad flare in several months and I’m so thankful.
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I had to accept the loss of everyday control once diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. I go to bed with plans for the next day, when the morning rolls around, I can’t get out of bed. In the past, I would beat myself up, feel shame and anger.
A shower takes an hour, it’s painful and exhausting. Instead, I use hospital approved cleansing wipes to bathe on the days when I can’t handle the thought of a shower. I’m embarrassed to tell my husband.
I shaved my head yesterday, taking care of my hair takes too much energy. I’m housebound, only doctors see me. My husband doesn’t say anything but I imagine the negative thoughts he has. Why can’t his wife be normal like others, why can’t we go out to eat, why don’t we have sex, I’m fat………the thoughts can consume.
I can ask myself questions about why not shower every day, I don’t. It’s not productive, within my control and doesn’t help my health. Stress creates inflammation creates more pain.
I pray a lot every day.
Melinda
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Chronic health concerns are extremely frustrating. Sending you healing wishes!💕
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Thank you. I’m so glad the flares are not as often.
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Fibromyalgia is so painful and can be difficult to deal with, sorry to hear it’s in your life. You’ve probably already read about the benefits of added magnesium, salmon, tuna, and berries. Anti-inflammatory diet work best at the same as adding magnesium. Whole grains instead of refined sugars and white bread, low fat foods and meats, and low-fat dairy help reduce inflammation that flares up the nerves.
All the best! Stay strong in your faith and may God bless!
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