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Throw Back Thursday: Warrior Is Taking You On The Way Back Machine, Music selection By Army Of Angels

Last week I was diagnosed with Lyme Disease  adjusting to the new meds is kicking my but. Not to worry, my trusted blogging sister Army of Angels jumped in to make this weeks selection. Big hugs for your help AoA. There would not be Throw Back Thursday this week without her help. I can’t wait to see what she picked. Sit back, take a little break to enjoy some tunes. Warrior

 

 

 

 

Men & Womens Health

Have You Ever Given Yourself A Shot? I Gave Myself The First Of Many Today

 

 

 

Lyme Meds

This hurdle has been on my mind for days. I’m not afraid of needles, it’s the thought of drawing the med out of bottle then injecting into my stomach. I cleared the hurdle with room to spare. I was diagnosed with Lyme Disease last week, it’s been a whirlwind of new meds, supplements and schedules. I will post more after I adjust to the meds, right now I’m so out of it. I also plan to document the long journey. If one person avoids this crippling disease, every post and struggle is worth it. For all of you who pray, please pray for me. I’m in extreme pain and the journey is long. Thank you.

Warrior

Survivor

Memories of Childhood Abuse Flood To The Surface Discussing Domestic Violence

Two of my blogging sister’s are going through a very rough time with their ex’s. Memories flood in of my childhood as a pawn for my mother. I thought I had a good understanding of Domestic Violence, I was wrong. My stepfather beat my mother almost daily, constant verbal abuse which would cause her emotional abuse. What really hit home is how the abuse of a parent trickles down to the kids. I thought the memories of my mother were in the past. I never looked at myself as living in a house with Domestic Violence. I’m blinded with hatred towards my mother for abusing me. These emotions come to the surface yet there is no sympathy for her. The realization my friends are going through the same difficulties is blinding. I was the pawn, not the mother watching her children in agony with no recourse. I have felt anger and cried so many tears for my friends. I see their pain and remember what it was like for me as a child. I’ve gone from crying to full caregiver mode, wanting to help. I’m so emotionally involved wanting to help anyway possible. As you can see from a conversation with one of my friends, I’ve gone overboard. Looking at what they are facing with the ex, I saw for the first time I was a pawn in my mother’s game. I lived in a home with Domestic Violence. Another form of abuse inflicted on me by my mother. The blessing is I am capable of feeling deep emotions for my friends. I don’t feel pain for me, all of my thoughts are for them and their kids. I’ve either resolved the abuse at the hands of my mother or can no longer look at the pain. Only God knows. I’ve known people with an abusive past , they were cold, hardened, unable to feel any emotion. I am so happy that is not me. I am not just a survivor I’m thriving. I would love to hear your thought’s.

ME:

Keep an open dialog going with the kids, keep a journal of the changes they show with dates. I know this is eating at you and rightly so. He has already crossed the line of what’s appropriate. Why would XXXX want to sleep in her clothes suddenly? It does raise flags.Will he take another step. I pray not. Try to set specific rules on calling times while their gone and the consequences if they do not call, answer your call or text. You could even outline a small agenda for the kids, that way you don’t have to listen or be yelled at by the dad. Did you find out why XXXX didn’t want his grandmother to know he lied? They are young and under a lot of stress, it’s never to early to teach kids their actions have consequences. We had rules on how to act from the time we were small kids. One idea is after they get back and chill, take each kid to do something fun. Ice cream in the park then relax feeding ducks, you know how to ask questions without asking questions. Do this with both kids and see what comes out of their mouth when off guard down. If the dad has polluted their mind, using as pawns, think about your parents or one parent do the same, see what happens. The dad is a selfish monster. I have no doubt you will have to take him back to court someday. Think about a child counselor for each at a later date. If you can find a decent ass lawyer, having statements from a Therapist will throw his game off. I believe the only way he will stop abusing you and the kids is for him to see you’ve grown some balls. Stay ahead of him and strike like a python. You might look at what books are available that captures his personality disorder, custody, what to look for and possible suggestions on what or how to approach it. Maybe hide some notes with nice sayings in their clothes, little reminders that you love them. Maybe a small trinket that could keep them busy, making sure kids bring it home to show you what they’ve learned. That may discourage dad from keeping all the toys. As you can tell I’m thinking of everything I can for you and the kids. My life dream would come true if a child never had to endure abuse. It fuck’s up your life, it took a miracle for me to stay sane. I’m thinking of you and wished I could help. The what if’s bring up memories I would not wish on anyone. I’ll look for some resources this week. I’m thinking about you, let me know how I can help.

XX:

…you hit the nail on the head about the “what ifs?” I think that being an older parent, I’ve seen and experienced more to learn from than when I was in my 20′s raising the older two. We’ve done some phone call role-playing, so this visit we’ll try again for a short, sweet conversation while they’re with the dad. The summer has provided the dad with way more contact with me than I wanted to deal with. I so share your dream that children not have to silently endure any abuse! It sickens me to see, knowing what he is capable of…it has been a tough summer for all, interspersed with some rock in’ fun times.

ME:

I rarely feel the warmth of tears. I’ve cried many times the past two weeks in pain for you & XX. I cried this morning and tried to analyze my emotions. My own abuse, being a pawn, came to the surface as anger. Lots of anger. I’m sure being older has been a blessing dealing with this. I hope none of my comments have not upset you, everything said is out of love and concern. :)
I’m pushing down my emotions so I can get five lbs. of paperwork done for tomorrow.

Warrior

Survivor

100 days in captivity

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Yesterday marked the 100th day in captivity for the school girls abducted from Chibok, Borno State, Nigeria. I can’t believe it’s been that long. We tend to forget or lose track of these things especially when there are more buffeting and immediate problems.

Three days ago, there was a total of 4 bombings in the country – two in Kaduna, one each in Borno and Yobe I think, killing almost a hundred people and injuring scores others. Two days ago there was another in Kano state. There was probably another somewhere yesterday. I didn’t comb through the news.

There hasn’t been one incident free week in Nigeria since the abduction of these girls. But that does not excuse relegating these girls to the background.

The President had a closed door meeting with the abducted girls’ parents. I do not know the outcome. A while back I heard all the girls…

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Survivor

Danny Nickerson, the Boy with an Inoperable Brain Tumor, Receives THOUSANDS of Birthday cards

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Further to the 5-year-old with Terminal Cancer Just Wants Some Mail. Let’s Overflow his P.O. box… post from a few days ago, we are absolutely delighted to see that young Danny Nickerson has received so many cards from well-wishers all over the world.

All Danny of Foxboro, Mass., wanted for his sixth birthday, this Friday, was cards. So far, the little boy with an inoperable brain tumor has received thousands upon thousands.

Daniel Nickerson

The family has been tracking the influx of packages on its Facebook page Danny’s Warriors.

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“Todays total rough count was a little over 8,500 cards and 900 packages!!! We filled the uhaul completely up! And then filled 3 cars too!” the family posted on Facebook this week.

“We are in awe of all of this, we are speechless and dont have enough words to explain how thankful we are for everyone of you! And all the love…

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Fun · Moving Forward

Brain Fart Friday: Warrior Eats Crow With Aerosmith & Rolling Stones

You know you’re getting old when you have no clue what day it is. We’re having Throwback Thursday!

I can’t give you Satisfaction by the Stones, think you’ll like my choice. Windows is foreign after all these years. You’re worth every word I said while working on post. I was born with a Rock Star in my head, better than marbles. I fell in love with Train Kept a Rollin’ at 12 years old. I would lay on the couch watching The Midnight Special letting the music soak in. Music is a trusted friend who always knows how to please. The Stones are older than dirt, Mick still dances badly and Keith has zero brain cells left. I saw The Rolling Stones at Wembley Stadium in 1990. It was a trip, 70,000 people single file, no assigned seats and calming walked in. As they started playing this song I was making my way to front stage. The crowd parted, passing me a joint like the old days. A great memory for the concert memory bank. I would love to hear your favorite concert memories. Watching the video brings back good memories with my friend Jackie. Both bands that stand the test of time. Now kick back, close your eye’s and remember the first time you heard the songs. 

Warrior

 

 

Fun · Moving Forward

Brain Fart Friday: Warrior Eats Crow With Aerosmith & Rolling Stones

You know you’re getting old when you have no clue what day it is. We’re having Throwback Thursday!

I can’t give you Satisfaction by the Stones, think you’ll like my choice. Windows is foreign after all these years. You’re worth every word I said while working on post. I was born with a Rock Star in my head, better than marbles. I fell in love with Train Kept a Rollin’ at 12 years old. I would lay on the couch watching The Midnight Special letting the music soak in. Music is a trusted friend who always knows how to please. The Stones are older than dirt, Mick still dances badly and Keith has zero brain cells left. I saw The Rolling Stones at Wembley Stadium in 1990. It was a trip, 70,000 people single file, no assigned seats and calming walked in. As they started playing this song I was making my way to front stage. The crowd parted, passing me a joint like the old days. A great memory for the concert memory bank. I would love to hear your favorite concert memories. Watching the video brings back good memories with my friend Jackie. Both bands that stand the test of time. Now kick back, close your eye’s and remember the first time you heard the songs. 

Warrior

 

 

Survivor

Throwback Thursday with Warrior is Brain Fart Friday This Week :)

I have lost it or something is up with computer. Trying to paste two videos has taken over an hour and still not working. I hate to work on my husbands Windows machine but you are worth it. If for any reason not completed today, come back tomorrow for Brain Fart Friday. Close you eyes and think about a young band called The Rolling Stones. They are on stage now jamming to Can’t Get No Satisfaction for your entertainment.  Thanks. 

Warrior

 

 

 

Fun · Survivor

5-year-old with Terminal Cancer Just Wants Some Mail. Let’s Overflow his P.O. box…

Let’s make this young boy’s birthday extra special. I believe miracles can happen. Warrior

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Danny Nickerson is 5 years old, but not for long. He’s very excited to become a big 6-year-old this Friday. As happy as this birthday will be, however, it will be hard, too.

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Danny has a virtually unbeatable cancer. Doctors have told his family that less than 10 percent of kids diagnosed with his type live longer than 18 months.

So the upcoming celebration will be an emotional day filled with far more highs and lows than a typical 6-year-old’s birthday. And what is he hoping to get for this extraordinary birthday?

Cards.

He loves getting mail.

His mom says,

“He can recognize his name now. When he saw his name on the package from magical fairies on Easter, he was so happy.”

Since Easter, though, packages have slowed down. But now, for his birthday, it’s time to make sure he gets all the cards he could possibly want to read.

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Men & Womens Health

Wrong Turn Lands U.S.M.C. Sgt. Andrew Tahmooressi in Mexican Federal Prison

Change.org Petition Update

Here is the link to sign the petition at Change.org   https://www.change.org/petitions/release-u-s-m-c-sgt-tahmooressi-imprisoned-in-mexico

Petitioning John Kerry (Secretary of State)

Release U.S.M.C. Sgt. Tahmooressi imprisoned in Mexico

Petition by Jill Tahmooressi

My son Andrew Tahmooressi is a Marine veteran fighting for his life and freedom in a Mexico jail after being wrongfully imprisoned for over a month after he accidentally crossed the border with three legal US purchased firearms in his truck.

Andrew suffers from PTSD and had just traveled from Florida to San Diego to seek V.A. evaluation where he was diagnosed in March and started his treatment plan. He had all of his belongs in his car with him, including three firearms as he was searching housing and hoping to secure employment.

On March 31 he got lost while driving, made a wrong turn in the border town of San Ysidro, CA and within yards of that wrong turn, found himself approaching the Mexican Customs lane with no obvious way to turn around. Stopping, he states immediately, “I got lost, made a wrong turn. I do not want to be here. May I go back to the border (USA)? I have 3 weapons in my vehicle.”

Instead he was arrested and imprisoned on weapons charges even though the ATF traced the firearms back to him within days.

Andrew’s tours took place in (2010 & 2012) Operation Enduring Freedom (OEF) Marine, and he is a Reservist until 8/24/2016 in the Individual Ready Reserve. His experiences left him with PTSD and this situation is making things so much worse. Since in prison, his life has been threatened, he sustained a neck laceration and has been restrained by handcuffs to bed for 35 days.

Our family is calling on Mexico’s Attorney General to realize a mistake has been made and release Andrew immediately. So far more than 21 members of Congress have called for my son’s release. Officials here in the U.S., including Secretary John Kerry and President Obama should join these calls so this veteran can be reunited with his family.

If you would like to watch a video message from his mother use link:   http://andrewfreedomfund.com   

Our military men & women deserve all the support Americans can give. This petition needs to land on Obama’s desk, let’s see if he can secure the release of Andrew. If you haven’t signed the petition, please do. If you have financial resources no matter how small please consider donating to help pay legal fees. Andrew served two tours for our country, he suffers the invisible scars of PTSD. No one deserves the treatment he is receiving. Here is our chance to support the fight for Andrew’s release.

Warrior    

Fun · Moving Forward · Survivor

A Grandparents Love Lives On With Happy Birthday Wishes

 

 

  My Granny

I miss my grandparents everyday, none more than on my birthday. Every year they would get on the phone together and sing Happy Birthday. This was a tradition, gramps called many in the family to sing Happy Birthday. As  gramps fell into a coma, one of his sisters by his side, my brother entered the room, she said it’s T’s birthday and gramps started singing. Those were his last words, I know my brother cherishes every word. Tomorrow I turn 51 yrs old, my grandparents can’t call yet I know they are thinking about me. A daily one minute phone call to say I’m alive was all granny needed. She always worried about me. They loved to watch our reactions to Santa, hiding Easter eggs and fighting over who would lick the bowl of frosting. I learned to roller skate at approx 5 years old. Skating provided an outlet and hearing my favorite music over the loud-speaker made me want to dance. As I got older my grandparents would take us skating. Unlike many parents today, my grandparents would stay to watch us have fun. We were building memories that last a lifetime. I loved to speed skate, coming around the last corner full speed one of my wheels blew out throwing me over the mushroom seats. I got up, sat down and began taking my skates off. The ball bearings wore out, it was a right of passage for us kids. Getting new wheels didn’t cross my mind, I didn’t have the money and knew my mother would die before buying me new wheels. My grandmother comes over, her purse on her arm as always and whispers in my ear “what do new wheels cost”. We talked to the salesperson about the different wheels and prices. I focused on the least expensive but really wanted the green speed skating wheels. She knew me so well, asking “how much for the green ones”? She says “I have some mad money” which meant she was hiding money. “Don’t tell your grandfather how much they cost”, ok no problem. She had money hid everywhere, under my dolls clothes, behind frames, in kick knacks. After her death I rounded up several hundred dollars, gramps had no idea she was hiding money. I had to take every photo frame apart, look in everything. Before Dementia took her mind, she took her wedding ring off and forgot where. This crushed gramps, we constantly looked for the ring. During one of our searches after her death I find this kleenex crumpled up in the bottom of a drawer. As soon as I pick it up, pay dirt. We stood there staring at it crying. He slept with the ring in a box by the bed, he gave it to me before he died.

My grandparents had 5-6 huge trees out back loaded with squirrels. Living thru the Depression, gramps knew how to entertain himself for hours. He would go to the river bottoms to pick up pecans, coming home with several buckets full. Then sit in his lawn chair in the shade to sort and crack. He did this several days a week for years so it was no surprise when he had a squirrel eating out of his hand. Granny wasn’t afraid of squirrels but didn’t have the same affection for them. Until she thought he killed one. It was hilarious to hear them tell the story. One of gramps other past times was sitting on the front porch using a sling shot and pecans to scare the squirrels. He shot a pecan up the tree, hits one, it falls out of tree and she thinks it’s dead. She had a few choice words then told him to go check on the squirrel. Gramps is about to pick it up and it comes to. He had knocked it out. I think they were both surprised and off the squirrel went. It bothered me watching this cat and mouse game my whole life, then he took it to a new level. Retirement can get boring for some, not gramps. He started leaving cages out back, when the squirrel would go in the door would close. He checked them all day long, as soon as the door went down, he would round granny up and off to the river bottoms they go. He might release six to eight a day. I think he really did it to get her out of the house, granny was legally blind, this allowed her to put some lipstick on and get out of the house.

My grandparents gave me unconditional love, self-confidence and their time. Time is more precious than what to me.

Warrior

Fun · Moving Forward

Throw Back Thursday *Rock Out With Fleetwood Mac, Eagles and Peter Frampton*

July 7, 2014 Throw Back Thursday startled to lighten the mood as we slide into the weekend. One day to kick back, for that short time lose yourself. Three years later it’s evolved to Triple Shot Thursday. I look forward to Thursday the same as I did in the beginning. I hope you enjoy three of my fav’s.  M

The music world would not be the same without Fleetwood Mac, the greatest band in the world! Watch Lindsey Buckingham make his guitar scream. Those were the 1970’s.  Enjoy.   Warrior

Survivor

LET ME TUG AT YOUR HEART

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Sometimes we need help; things happen beyond our control and we have no choice but to ask for help to get back on our feet.  These are the times I am thankful for the network of friends I have and their generous hearts. I don’t typically ask for donations or for charitable contributions because 1) I am terrible at it and 2) I know everyone struggles to make a living; but I have a friend, and his family, who need you.  A divorced dad, with custody of his three children, was a pedestrian hit by a truck.  Jason Talbot needs your help after an extensive stay in the hospital and his continuing recovery from severe head trauma.

42e81a33-c45d-4c6b-b951-4f3bbbf63ddcI used to read about a cause that touched my heart and I would think I can’t afford to help enough to make a difference.  I used to feel heart broken and helpless…

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Moving Forward · Survivor

From Me To You, You Are Loved

I woke up weeping this morning, the reasons are never known. I sit down to write and start to cry. Unsure of what I need emotionally, my focus turns back to the computer. When a song strikes my heart, instantly I know that is what I need. Today I needed to hear I was loved. Josh Groban fills my soul, maybe he can fill you with love today.     

The song is by Josh Grobin, Don’t Give Up You Are Loved.

 

Melinda

Moving Forward · Survivor

From Warrior To You, Don't Give Up You Are Loved

I woke up weeping this morning, the reasons are never known to me. I sit down to write and start to cry. Unsure of what I need emotionally, my focus turns.When a song strikes my heart, instantly I know that is what I need. Today I needed to hear I was loved. Josh Groban fills my soul, maybe he can fill you with love today.     Warrior

Fun

Unable To Sleep? Bring On The Sandman

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Most people have  something they do to pass time when unable to sleep. Here’s mine. I don’t go for quality, just playing trying different ideas. Sometimes I come up with a keeper others  help to bring  on the Sandman.

Warrior

Fun · Moving Forward · Survivor

Throw Back Thursday*Warrior Throwsdown 1970’s Rock*

This is my fav music period, no doubt you’ll hear more. I picked three video’s, the first is Peter Frampton in 25 perfect minutes of music history. Shout out to my CTC brother Dragon, Chicago is for you.   Warrior

http://youtu.be/UXb8ZDuICCs

Fun · Moving Forward · Survivor

Throw Back Thursday*Warrior Throwsdown 1970's Rock*

This is my fav music period, no doubt you’ll hear more. I picked three video’s, the first is Peter Frampton in 25 perfect minutes of music history. Shout out to my CTC brother Dragon, Chicago is for you.   Warrior

http://youtu.be/UXb8ZDuICCs

Fun · Survivor · Travel

Look Who Recieved the Liebster Award**Celebrate Dance to the Music**

I received the Liebster Award by Silver Lining at HopeFulDepression.  It took a minute to pull myself up off the floor. I’m grateful for the nomination. The Liebster Award has a long history in the blogging community. The award is given to blogs with less than 1,000 followers as a way to acknowledge and motivate new blogs. I discovered the word Liebster is of German origin which is perfect since I’m of German origin. Nothing like a mix of German, Neanderthal and American Indian. I’m honored to receive the Liebster Award from a long time follower. Her work is powerful, I urge you to stop by to see for yourself.   http://hopefuldepression.wordpress.com 

How did you come up with name of blog?

I have Treatment Resistant Bipolar Disorder and have spent years in darkness. Looking for the Light could sum up your hopes for relief. 

Has the experience been what you expected?

I’m having so much fun meeting people from across the globe. Shortly after starting my blog, I joined The Cut Throat Club a collaborative group of survivors. We support each other in recovery and offer support to the community. I’m privileged to share my experience of abuse and depression with others. If sharing helps one person, my heart will smile. 

One thing that scares you?

Spiders, snakes and sharks.

One song that makes you the happy?

Beautiful Tonight by EC.

Do you have special talent or play an instrument?

Don’t play any instruments, not for lack of trying. Special talent, can’t think of  any unless the gift of gab fits.

What age did you stop believing in Santa?

I remember it clearly, 5 years old told my mother Santa wasn’t real and I was to old to take naps.

Favorite place you’ve traveled to?

I fell in love with St Petersburg, Russia. France is second.

Can you sing?

 Very badly but it doesn’t stop the rock star in my mind. 

Favorite Book and why?

Bible, you learn something new every time you read. 

If you could live anywhere where would it be?

I haven’t traveled the world yet so that’s hard to answer. Probably right here in USA, Home of the Free. 

Have you ever won an award in sports?

 A blue ribbon for a relay race in third grade. 

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Eleven Radom Facts about me

1. I’m left-handed yet use my right hand for most task. 

2. I wanted to work as a photojournalist for Life magazine.

3. I collect old camera’s and books.

4. My first job at 10 yrs. old was throwing the newspaper.

5. I’ve been a music lover since four years old, my grandparents bought me a record player.

6. Learned to skate at 4-5 years old. The Lion Sleeps Tonight was “the” song.

7. I am a native Texan.

8. I love to travel and my bucket list is quite long.

9. I’m claustrophobic, it was hard to learn to scuba.

10. When C.B.’s were popular my handle was Teddy bear.

11. I never read instructions. 

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Fun

Sunday in the Park Not on Fouth of July**Band Chicago if confused**

A couple of months ago I went to park and took photos of ducks, water and most important fresh air. It’s probably the day I was bit by a tick contracting Lyme. All the details for another post. It was wonderful just to drive my car, it’s three years old and has at best 1,000 miles. After being in the house sick or afraid to go anywhere by myself, just a park a few streets over felt like total freedom. The key to happiness was being able to take my camera and just mess around. I was struggling with balance problems but refuse to use my cane. I enjoyed the sun, staring down a squirrel and seeing loads of ducks. It’s a family park and many children were out feeding the ducks. There’s a creek near by and I had to investigate. We released 12 baby ducks there a couple of years ago. There were little fish, nothing exciting. It was the greatest day in recent history from a health perspective. I’ve only been out of the house twice since early fall and he drove both times. I’ve had a rough weekend yet wanted everyone to know I am thinking about you. I’m praying for a better day tomorrow. Thank you for stopping by or to my followers.

Warrior  :)

 

Lazy Sunday in Park

 

Dinner Bell

 

Looking for lunch

Sunday in the park

Men & Womens Health

That’s What We Do We’re Americans* Join Warrior, Red Skelton, Oliver North and Ray Charles For the Festivities*

Words can not express the gratitude in my heart for the men and women who keep America strong and free. I would like to tell every soldier they are not forgotten. Since I’m not about to travel to the middle east, remember you have a loyal supporter in Texas. Lets not forget the wars are not over. Soldiers are fighting at home with burns, amputation, PTSD and many other life altering challenges. Now that you know I carry you in my heart, let’s party.    Warrior

http://youtu.be/TZBTyTWOZCM

 

Men & Womens Health

That's What We Do We're Americans* Join Warrior, Red Skelton, Oliver North and Ray Charles For the Festivities*

Words can not express the gratitude in my heart for the men and women who keep America strong and free. I would like to tell every soldier they are not forgotten. Since I’m not about to travel to the middle east, remember you have a loyal supporter in Texas. Lets not forget the wars are not over. Soldiers are fighting at home with burns, amputation, PTSD and many other life altering challenges. Now that you know I carry you in my heart, let’s party.    Warrior

http://youtu.be/TZBTyTWOZCM

 

Fun

Rock Out Treat For Willy Nilly From Sister Warrior

Why have I done a video post for Willy Nilly my brother? We talk smack a lot, have similar taste in music and he’s a great guy. If he can’t take the shit he needs to get out kitchen!!!! :) Trust me he can take it and spoon feed it back to you. Willy will not tell me his age, he knows mine, I’m going to kill him kindness to find out. He’s knows exactly what I’m doing. I say he is much younger. I’m a rock star in my head and wanted to see if I hit his music button. I had to prove my music tastes is different for my age group. 51 years old in couple of weeks, 50 doesn’t feel that old, it’s my body that didn’t get the memo. I included a couple from my guitar hero EC. I appreciate anyone who can make a guitar sweetly scream. Enjoy the video’s. After you leave feedback for me be sure and visit Willy Nilly and comment on his musical taste. Have a great Fourth of July celebration. Get ready to jam, turn the speakers up high!!!!!      Warrior

 

http://youtu.be/_iAt1eQagPA

http://youtu.be/rj4J6i_vw0w

http://youtu.be/VT-SFgkVlno

Men & Womens Health

Throw Back Thursday For the Rock Star in All Of Us **Join Warrior For A Rocking Good Time**

As many of you know I’m a Rock Star in my head. I didn’t think I would meet anyone as competent as Eric Clapton. I did, he’s a young buck named John Mayer. EC invited John to stay for a couple of months at his house in Antigua. He mentored John, trying to break him out of his shell. What a success. I have every John Mayer tune downloaded and sleep with him most nights. Including a slower version of Gravity. I can not vouch for John’s taste in clothing. I hope you enjoy because it’s almost 2:00 a.m. and having a blast picking videos. Get your air guitar ready! Leave you’re feedback.   Warrior

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Moving Forward · Survivor

Operation Infinite Justice “Where the Stars and Strips and the Eagle Fly”

I saw the video this morning, memories flashed, I found my notes. This is for all the heroes including victims and families. Sending out big hugs.  

9/11/01

Notes I made as horror unfolds.

The face of America and the free world has changed. America is under attack by terrorist. Four planes hijacked, two planes crashed in to both World Trade Center buildings. Not long after a plane crashed in to Pentagon and one crashed in field in Pennsylvania. Both towers fell to ruble, a shocking sight. As the buildings crash the air looked like a volcano. Fatalities are high. The fire’s rage on at Pentagon. We learned plane crashed in PA targeting White House. Airforce One possible target, no information on how.

The second day airspace locked down. The reaction from around the world is amazing. Even China has provided their support in the event of war. We have committed to use what ever means we have to fight terrorist. Bomb threat for Empire State, bomb dogs picked up a positive reading. Manhattan is a war zone. Several buildings evacuated, no other incidents.

I’m embarrassed by the people who deface Mosque.

So many not displaying flag.

Doesn’t seem right to turn television off. It’s so hard to process what happened this week.

What’s financial impact, how devastating ?

I heard my first helicopter since Tuesday. My mind flashed, how would Dallas respond? Do we have the protection needed?

It’s been a week, so much accomplished. No one found alive since last Wednesday.

9/17/01

Troops on alert including reservist. 5,432 people still missing. Afghanistan has launched a Holy War. What’s Holy about war?

9/19/01

The war is now called Operation Infinite Justice. The order signed for troops to move, no details. As many as 150 aircraft staging. Tomorrow ground troops get orders.

9/20/01

It is hard to watch families say goodbye as troops head out.

 

Moving Forward · Survivor

Operation Infinite Justice "Where the Stars and Strips and the Eagle Fly"

I saw the video this morning, memories flashed, I found my notes. This is for all the heroes including victims and families. Sending out big hugs.  

9/11/01

Notes I made as horror unfolds.

The face of America and the free world has changed. America is under attack by terrorist. Four planes hijacked, two planes crashed in to both World Trade Center buildings. Not long after a plane crashed in to Pentagon and one crashed in field in Pennsylvania. Both towers fell to ruble, a shocking sight. As the buildings crash the air looked like a volcano. Fatalities are high. The fire’s rage on at Pentagon. We learned plane crashed in PA targeting White House. Airforce One possible target, no information on how.

The second day airspace locked down. The reaction from around the world is amazing. Even China has provided their support in the event of war. We have committed to use what ever means we have to fight terrorist. Bomb threat for Empire State, bomb dogs picked up a positive reading. Manhattan is a war zone. Several buildings evacuated, no other incidents.

I’m embarrassed by the people who deface Mosque.

So many not displaying flag.

Doesn’t seem right to turn television off. It’s so hard to process what happened this week.

What’s financial impact, how devastating ?

I heard my first helicopter since Tuesday. My mind flashed, how would Dallas respond? Do we have the protection needed?

It’s been a week, so much accomplished. No one found alive since last Wednesday.

9/17/01

Troops on alert including reservist. 5,432 people still missing. Afghanistan has launched a Holy War. What’s Holy about war?

9/19/01

The war is now called Operation Infinite Justice. The order signed for troops to move, no details. As many as 150 aircraft staging. Tomorrow ground troops get orders.

9/20/01

It is hard to watch families say goodbye as troops head out.

 

Survivor

Critical Follow Up Information To Lyme and Other Tick Borne Illnesses Post

Update on Lyme post. As you read about Lyme you will hear about co-infections. When a tick bites you every infection its carrying transfers to you. Another type of co-infection is from the virus moving thru your body. If the virus makes its way to your organs including the heart and brain. The menacing virus causes damage inside the body other than Lyme. The co-infections can get extremely painful. I hope you will seek out the more information to get the true horrifying story. Education may save your life or someone you love.      Warrior

Here are several great resources to learn in-depth information on Lyme and Tick Borne Illnesses. 

On YouTube:

Interview with Daryl Hall of Hall and Oats

Dr. Horowitz: Lyme Disease & Chronic Illnesses  ( Dr. Horowitz is the foremost expert on Lyme, invented an exact test performed at IGenex )

Lyme Disease: History & Controversies included proper way to remove tick.

Additional resources ***http://justinandchrista.ca    This is your total education on Lyme, Husband films wifes struggle with Lyme over 5 years.  THIS IS A MUST  She screams in agony, it’s heartbreaking and may disturb small children.

ILADS International Lyme and Associated Diseases Society  The association provides training for doctors for Lyme certification, tons of stats and how to find a Lyme Literate Doctor.

Dr. Horowitz’s latest book, Why Can’t I Get Better: Solving Lyme and Chronic Disease ( downloaded but haven’t started yet )

If you want every detail, this presentation is for you. Search for: Advanced Topics In Lyme Disease by Joseph J. Burrascano Jr. MD. The presentation’s offers Diagnostic Hints and Treatment Guidelines For Lyme And Other Tick Borne Illnesses. Sixteenth Edition October 2008.

Men & Womens Health

If You Think You Know Lyme It’s Time For a Serious Refresher Course

Over the past 6+ months my Neurologist has performed every test in her arsenal except a spinal. Every test she ran came back abnormal yet not able to pin down a diagnosis (see post Are Those My Brainwaves). She refered me to a Rheumatologist to start on the tread mill again. I started researching illnesses which included brain wave abnormalities to weed out my more common symptoms. There were the ones I expected, Lupus, Multiple Sclerosis or other autoimmune disorder. I didn’t think my answer would come from RA Doctor. More reasearch and what I found was alarming, not the illness alone, the politics and witch hunt taking place. The illness is Lyme or other tick borne illnesses. The CDC rates Texas as med-high concentration. The east coast is at epidemic levels with some articles stating we are facing epidemic levels across the country. I had a different idea for this post yet feel it’s critical to get this information out ASAP. When I learned of the divide in the medical community over Lyme, I shook my head. What is the controversy. The CDC establishes treatment standards for doctors. The standard Lyme test is based on 20-year-old information. What happens is you go to doctor for a Lyme test, it comes back negative. You then find out the test is 30% +/- correct. The CDC acknowledges the test has false positives yet the standard for testing hasn’t changed. With a lack of confidence in the test, I wanted to see a Lyme Literate Doctor. This blew my mind, a current day Salem Witch Hunt is happening. On one side of the controversy are doctors who specialize in Lyme and tick borne illness. If a tick bite is not caught right away it grows in your system. Lyme looks like a long skinny curly worm. It bores thru your body damaging your organs or brain depending where it lands. The symptoms can move around your body as the virus spreads. Lyme is hard to kill, it can encapsulate itself in an invisible cocoon and is near impossible to see under microscope. The Lyme doctors take the approach, attack the virus aggressively for long periods of time to prevent a relapse. People who are very ill from Lyme can require years of antibiotics. Not only to kill the virus more importantly to save your life.  Heres the rub, the CDC states 2 weeks of antibiotics will cure Lyme  and doctors can prescribe an extra 2 weeks if needed. Medicare pays based on the standard set by the CDC. Insurance companies only pay what Medicare pays. Doctors treating patients until they are well started getting called before the Medical Review Board having their license taken away for a year. Insurance companies are cancelling people’s policy and they are left with 150k+ in out-of-pocket expenses. People have to decide do we lose our house or get their loved one treatment. It is heartbreaking to watch the videos on YouTube. There are two main associations which doctors join, it has become one assoc. for long-term treatment and the other against. Most doctors go underground and do not list themselves as Lyme Literate. When I decided to see a Lyme Literate doctor it was a process. I called the association, they took info on where I lived and would call back. The next morning I received a call with a doctor’s name and phone number. I later found out the doctor I’m seeing was the first to lose his licenses for a year. I didn’t know if I should jump for joy or not. The information below includes a heartbreaking story of the death of founders son. I can’t stress enough how serious the illness can get. I’m battling over 50 symptoms on any given day. The size of tick you are looking for is a nymph about the size of sesame seed. When you’re doing tick checks on you and the kids, these are hard to see. Around 50% of people get a bull’s-eye rash. Please remember to check your scalp, they can hang out in your hair. A flashlight might help with this task. I’ll keep you up to date on how my appointment goes. I’m not worried about what, I need an answer to move on to the next hurdle. I will do a f/u post including more information about treatments.    Warrior

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Lyme Disease Foundation      http://lyme.org

The LDF has worked tirelessly helping others since its formation in 1988. Together, we have trailblazed a wide path of awareness and assistance by educating millions through our media programs; hundreds of thousands in our direct contact programs (e.g. phone calls, letters, faxes, internet), and hundreds of thousands through our medically-accredited education programs. During this time we have obtained millions of dollars for government-administered research and education programs and have assisted others around the world in starting their own foundations, non-profits, support groups, and the like. Empowerment of the public was vital in order to help people protect their families from the devastations that wrecked havoc with my son, Jamie. When he died, a few weeks before his 6th birthday, he was unable to talk, feed himself, sit, crawl, hold his head up, and he fed through a tube in his stomach. It was with that concept of education and empowerment, that I wrote the book, Everything You Need to Know About Lyme Disease.

The LDF was established at a time when only a handful of researchers and patients knew of the “new” illness known as Lyme arthritis. The illness was considered harmless, affecting only joints, could only be contracted in several towns in Connecticut, and one where one cured oneself without medication. The LDF shattered that paradigm and many more that were subsequently proclaimed. Remember when people thought one dose of oral antibiotics cured everyone at any time during the disease? That was proved to be inaccurate. Remember when the disease was considered to have “stages” and it took months to years for the disease to move from one “stage” to the next? That was proved to be inaccurate when our scientists proved dissemination could occur within minutes.

The LDF’s main focus was to bring the diverse groups together (researchers, practitioners, veterinarians, and patients) to help them have a better understanding of the realities of Lyme disease.

We set a course that made sure that basic science findings were matched with the medicine being offered to patients. We made sure that over 100 years of “Lyme” history was reproduced and available for all to read in order to debunk the concept the disease was “new.” Now, we know that a 5,300 year-old Neolithic frozen mummy found in the Alps was proven to have Lyme disease. We made sure that all of the other Lyme manifestations (brain, heart, eye, etc.) were placed on posters and in brochures for all to see and consider. When this disease was portrayed as only a “white persons” disease, we made sure that healthcare professionals also realized that people of many other colors and heritage also suffered from it and were at risk.

People now know that Lyme disease is a multi-system illness that could be life-threatening, the standard antibody blood tests do not predict who has or did not have an infection, and sometimes antibiotics did not clear the infection out of patients. Indeed, some mainstream practitioners were rigid in their beliefs and did not like the message, so they attacked the messenger. But, mainstream basic research proved that science supported the LDF’s message. Even in 2012, we read that a “new” study coming out of Tulane University [http://www.plosone.org/article/info:doi/10.1371/journal.pone.0029914] proves the persistency of Lyme disease infection despite aggressive antibiotic treatment. This harkens back to a prior study, of 15 years ago that showed the same thing.

The tick-borne disease world has changed since our first scientific meeting held a mere 3 months after our formation. Within the first two years, the LDF moved the public’s, employer’s, government’s, and media awareness of “Lyme disease” from an unknown unrecognized mystery illness to one that is universally recognized at over 90%. While science still has a long way to go to find permanent solutions, our mission has been accomplished. There are now many wonderful tick-borne disorder nonprofits throughout the United States, Canada, and around the world. Many wonderful people have joined the community as leaders and are now on the forefront trailblazing new scientific exploration and providing support for those in need. The government has and still is funding many diverse research programs, between that and private scientific funding, I believe the solutions will soon be here. There are enough strong advocates within and outside the medical community to ensure that innovative research is an ongoing reality.

My husband and I co-founded the LDF, when my son Jamie was diagnosed with congenital Lyme Disease. Since then, I have volunteered about 1,000 – 2,000 hours a year for over 24-years to keep the LDF’s doors open. I volunteered throughout the many times Jamie was in and out of the hospital. I continued volunteering despite Tom, Jamie, and my being right in the heart of San Francisco during the 1989 earthquake. When my son died in 1991, I continued volunteering at the LDF. When my daughter was born in 1993, I was still volunteering. Presidents, Congressional members, government personnel have come and gone, and still I was volunteering. Then, I went to law school and spent time between classes answering LDF mail and conducting media interviews from the campus. As time passed, my dad got sick and died and subsequently my mom became sick and died. Despite this, I was still volunteering and conducting LDF business. Throughout the years, the wonderful Board members and other volunteers were also volunteering, fitting their efforts in around their family’s own trials and triumphs.

Unfortunately, in February 2009, I fell on black ice and broke my kneecap and arm. Despite being in a cast, wheelchair, and leg brace, I continued to volunteer at the LDF, attend meetings, design brochures and programs, and attend professional programs (all with the help of my daughter). I was in physical therapy, to relearn to walk, until October 20, 2011, when I was finally walking. Unfortunately, on November 1, 2011, during a long-term power outage from a freak Halloween snowstorm, I fell and massively broke my femur. After multiple surgeries and an extended time in a wheelchair, walker, and nursing home, I find I am now, once again, in physical therapy to re-relearn how to walk. In reflection, since founding the LDF, I have lost my son, mother, father, 5 pets, and father-in-law. I have had the joy of recently celebrating my 38th wedding anniversary and have been lucky to have an incredibly wonderful daughter who just turned 18 and is just finishing her first year of college. Based on the unique lifetime I have had, I find it is time for me to move on to the next chapter in my life.

I am busy securing all of the LDF documents and plan to place them in a format so that the information will not be lost to posterity. As of last week, we no longer accept donations and consider the LDF closed. We wish everyone well and hope to see you’all in the future. We appreciate the vitality and strength of all who have worked so hard to help find solutions to all tick-borne diseases.

I am thanking the LDF friends for their incredible support. I am especially thankful for the LDF Board members who helped change the face of the world, specifically Willy Burgdorfer, PhD, MD (Hon.); James Miller, PhD; Paul Lavoie, MD; Joe Fisher, MBA, CPA; Len Schuchman, DO MPH, FAAFP (who is also our fabulous webmaster!); Julie Rawlings, MPH; John Anderson, PhD; Congressman Berkley Bedell; Thomas E. Forschner, MBA, CPA; Paul Duray, MD; Fran Newman; Frank Demarest & his wonderful family; and Ed Bosler, PhD. I want to make a special mention of Ms. Johanson, an incredible woman who has supported the LDF through all of our great times and lean times. She has been our single most ardent silent supporter throughout the years.

Also, I should thank a variety of leaders in the Lyme community, including, Randy Sykes; Monte & Gregg Skall; Mary Halinski; Linda Lobes; Linda Rinaldi; Sandy Cifone, Bea Szantyr, MD; Elsie Anderson; Ruth & Irwin Vanderhoof, PhD; Linda, Stephanie, & Shane Gordon; Renee Thaler; Dave Kazarian, R.Ph.; Diane Kindree, RN; Amy Jones; Gloria Wenk; and Linda Weiss. Celebrities have also been instrumental in helping, including Kevin Bacon, Billy Joel, Emilio Delgado, Christy Brinkley, and Gianni Russo.

There were many sponsors that donated to the LDF and asked nothing in return, these include: The Society of Actuaries; the Actuarial Foundation; Cutter; Hartz; Walmart; Country Cape Antiques; the No Frills Foundation; and various Rotary clubs. We thank our research partners, such as NIH’s Rocky Mountain Labs; Tulane; Texas A & M; Connecticut Agricultural Experiment Station; and many others.

While many members of Congress have tried to help in numerous ways, Senator Joe Lieberman, Sen. Chris Dodd, Sen. Rick Santorum, and Representative George Hochbruckner and Rep. Joe Courtney have been instrumental in transforming the world’s understanding of ticks and the dangerous pathogens they can transmit.

I also want to thank my daughter, Christy Vanderhoof-Forschner, for the last several years of help in getting me, my wheelchair, and luggage through the airports and to various programs. I am so very glad your life has been tick-disease free! And, a special thanks to Jamie in heaven, for his endless love to us while we tried to make his time on earth one of Joy and Hope.

I thank the patients for their persistence in seeking their proper diagnosis and to the doctors who believed in them, even to the point of risking their own licenses and reputations. I apologize that I have not included everyone’s names. But, I wanted to thank some people now. Once again, I thank you all for your efforts to work together to improve our world for the next generation.

I find I have many fond memories, as well as some sad times. We all have met very wonderful people, some who are here and some that are gone. We will all carry their stories with us. Maybe, someday, I will document the past 24-years of my life so that you can all know the real behind-the-scenes stories during my journey at the tip of the iceberg known as “Lyme disease.”

Sincerely,

Karen Vanderhoof-Forschner